You are the one who makes the memories....

Sometimes people just dont realize what they say...they dont realize that it can hurt somebody..

People make friends through out their journey of life..some stay while some just wither away..some just stay in the memories either making you smile or hurting you. Life cant be the same always then why do you expect people not to change???

Was going through my school and college pics and recalling the old times..Seriously things have changed..Some pics pricked my heart and some just brought back the good old memories. When I sit back and read my letters and diaries...I laugh..and think how naive I was..Fighting over petty issues..getting possessive about my stuffs and friends..falling in love and out of love..waiting for a glance of my crush..those acts might have been stupid, but they still had an innocence in them...the innocence that I have lost now..the innocence that I crave for!
People in a relationship or friendship do start expecting a lot..and if something misses at some point of time..they make it an issue..I have been one such person...Its nothing wrong..If you do have someone who really cares for you, you do start expecting..that a normal human behavior..but what if he/she doesnt stand up to your expectation?? You might just get upset, lose trust or might be you just get into a fight and lose your friendship forever. All these while I have realized one thing..the closer you get..the more complicated you make it..why not stay a bit away and maintain a healthy relationship. Being a best friend doesnt mean that you can peep into each and every personal matter of your friend..Even they need a personal space..I know this is quite tough to digest but I have learnt it the hard way..Have been really unreasonable at times trying to safeguard my best friend..and forgetting the personal space that he/she needed during that phase..

Have lost many during the course of time..some of which I regret and some of which I feel happy about...but all in all..each one of them occupy the same space in my memory shelf...

So, as I said...memories arnt good or bad...its the way you make it and perceive it...

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY...

The day I saw you...I thought Gosh! why me?..the day I spoke to you I felt...Naaaah! may be I was a bit too impulsive..and the day I knew you...I felt..was there something that I missed all this while????....

Dear friend,

Its been not long since I have known you..but then theres something about you that catches my attention..I feel lost at times..at times I get annoyed..at times I just love it when you are around..& at times, even seeing you ruins my day...Dunno!!! how come you are such a mixed bag for me..But theres just one thing thats enough to make it up for all...and that is your presence...I have never been able to express my feelings for you..thats may be because I am conscious about what would others think...may be because..I have never expressed my feelings before..or may be because...whenever I expressed I was asked not to...but that doesnt make me any less human than you..as people say..things are never one sided...and friendship is no different..I dunno what made me write this blog today..but would like to tell you one thing sincerely...I AM SORRY...sorry for being unrealistic at times...sorry for not being the way you want me to..sorry for not being able to express...and sorry for hurting you again and again...I am lucky to have you in my life...a friend so special..a true friend..someone who is there to hold me when i fall..to caress me when I am tired..to sooth me when I am annoyed..n above all to cheer me up when I am frustrated and sad...I dunno what the future has in it for both of us..dunno if we remain such good friends forever..but there is one thing that I want you to know..I know this may sound cliche..but...."Your presence will always be felt"...I wish life would have been a bit more simpler or may be I would have made it less complex(whichever way you feel)..things could have been better off...I do think at times..is there something that you wanna tell me?...or is there this silence of yours that tells it all?..or is there something that I ignore deliberately?...

Have never been successful in telling you what I feel about you...but I hope this blog of mine does the job..Life is a journey..we meet many on the way..some leave us..some stay for a while..some keep walking with us..but there are few..who leave there footprints..and in my life's journey you are the one..

Its been a real pleasure for me to have known you..to have you around..Have cherished each and every moment that I have spent with you..I know you do expect somethings from me at times..and failing to do so..I hurt you...thanks for tolerating me all this while...

Happy friendships day....

Love,

Your friend forever..

Promises..a heart touching story

Never ever make promises as 'Promises are meant to be broken'...and that was the reason why he never promised. He never promised to be there forever..he never promised to hold my hand..he never promised of being together..He never ever promised
But it was me who felt the unspoken promises and wove dreams...thought of being together forever and ever.. People say promises are meant to be broken..but this was not a promise. I still couldnt understand what went wrong..It happened in no time.
I stil remember.."29th June,2008"..we were driving to Delhi.. We were on bike. I was excited as it was my first long ride with him. A sunny morning.. wonderful highway and everything seemed to be perfect. And suddenly I lost track of what happened. I saw a truck moving towards us, it lost control and then I blacked out.Next day I found myself in an I.C.U chamber.I was scared and the first thing that came to my mind was...HIM.I saw our parents outside. I signed my mother to come inside.She was in a pathetic condition. Her eyes filled with tears. I consoled her telling " Hey Mom I am alive and dont worry I will get well soon." But I sensed something wrong. I kept asking about him and there was an anomalous silence.
After an hour I was informed that "He is no more."... Its been one and a half years and I everything is still so fresh. All the unheard promises and all the dreams. Its destiny. Somethings can never be changed.

socha na tha....!!!!!!!!!

life is truly unpredictable..one moment u seem to be on d top of the wrld n the next moment u find yourself in the middle of nowhere...well thats called life..but wwe still love it and treasure every moment...

school days....

Mornin 6:30 am...suddenly my mom starts scolding me terrribly..."ye kya u dint wake up yet..i am tired of wakin u up everyday..." n then i would get up slowly with a heavy heart...
wel tht ws my everyday ka routine....i was too lazy to get up myself...finally after a lot of illogical thoughts i would realize tht its 6:50 n my school van comes sharp at 7:15...so better be ready..
getting out of the bed i would straight away rush to the bathroom which fortunately or unfortunately used to be occupied by my sister...after al usse bhi toh school (NAHI) jana hai but ye another style of torture tha...so there starts my mahabharat ka yudh...so everyday around 6:55 i was privileged with the golden opprtunity of entering the sacred bathroom which was allowed only for ten min..doesnt matter you complete your aarti n aradhna or not ..whatevr..
so by 7:10 i would be ready..but still fighting with my hair style...as it never used to look gud..newy finally after a hell lot of struggle i would manage to get ready by 7:14...coz the van never bothered to wait for 2 min...
anyway so with the school shoes in my hand i would rush through the gate and sit on the front seat..so busy tying my shoes ki mummy ko bhi bye nahi bol pati thi...after all famous people like me are always in a hurry ..after all each second is precious for them..
chalo ye toh tha mera morning routine of going to the school- the best place on earth....:)
now d real school life...
so immediately after reaching my classroom i used to rush to the last bench to occupy the seat-it was one among d popular seats in our class..
then at 7:45 our school bell would ring..calling everyone for morning prayers..though that used to be the best place to start our morning gossips...:)
After all the morning prayers, bhaashan n stuff finally by 8:00 pm they used to relieve us of that horrible torture...so that we could encounter our next torture...the superb classes..
english class...Mrs. Lata Balaswamy(name changed)...our great english teacher..who used to be in her own world..a wonderful floral printed synthetic saree along with bright slippers and afcourse her unforgettable specs with the golden chain that used to add to her beauty...thats more than enough to identify her...she used to enter with a sweet smile and always wished to c the same smile on our face in return..but to her dismay..it never happened.
anyway so after taking the attendance c used to open the flights of imagination..(our poetry book)n then used to fly in a different world of imagination...and u would find the students half asleep but stil with some amount of consciousness so that they could instantly stand up to answer the questions asked by her,coz no one could bear her scolding as it contained nothing but a lot of chaatu bhaasan..but the best part ws even while scolding she had the bright smile on her face...finally the bell-ring after 45min used to shake us from our dreamy world and was a warning to get ready for the next torture...BIOLOGY
BIOLOGY:..it was basically a class that used to train us on how to write better and faster...and how to grasp some of the words which are pronounced in the worst possible way..Mrs Urmila Raman(name changed)..c had a peculiar look...two teeth were prominently seen even when her mouth was closed..generally in suits..drowsy look on her face n a neatly tied top knot...wel thats more than enough to describe her...d moment she used to enter all the children would be seen with a sulked face...that was how we used to welcome her..
No attendance nothin...c always had a bundle of notes in her hand and her only target was to make the students write a minimum of 15-16 pages in a single class..doesnt matter what..
so we used to have special pens during her class hours which would provide maximum protection to our fingers...though none of the pens succeeded..Wel finally left with no choice we used to literally struggle with the pen and paper ..and on top of that we had to be too good in grasping some of the easiest words pronounced in the most difficult ways...e.g.(wooden=ooden)a class where we dint even had the time to breathe so gossiping was out of question.and some of the attentive students were stictly warned not to utter a single word in her class which mite show a sign of doubt on their face coz a single doubt asked by them was answered by an extra 2 page writings that too with some of the familiar but peculiar sounding words...and finally by 9:30 we used to be rescued by shyam bhaiya(name changed)...for ringing the bell...
so there are still a number of subjects and period left..but writing about all of them in a single day is not possible..so i would prefer writing in parts...i hope reading this would remind u of your own school days..afterall they are the best days of our life....
...................to be contd..

The twists n turns...

As i already mentioned..nothin in d wrld cn b achieved easily or smoothly..u need to try hard.
So thats how my love story ke twists n turns start.
Love triangle is a very common thing n it may sound cliche to many but then even this love story had a love triangle.N guess wat! it was Sneha who was responsible for the creation of this geometric figure..:)
It ws around july- aug '06 wen sid introduce sneha to one of his frnz(i hop u can guess now)N this frn of sid(atul-name chngd) was a wondrful person to be with.He was completely different from sid n may be thats y they wr best frnz(coz opp poles attrct).Newy comin to my story.....Since Sid was kinda boring sneha used to frequently hangout wid atul n c enjoyed that.Both of them used to have loads of fun but they never knew that this friendship was leading to something else.
Finally aftr many days atul realized his love for sneha and he confessed his love to her.N as u already know even Sid had fallen in love with sneha by then....
hmmmmmmm....bechari sneha ajeeb dharam sankat mein pad gayi...Both d guys were her best frenz and c dint wanna lose any of them..N d grotesque thing was c fell for both...
Now do u feel a person can love two persons at a time?is it rite...?..(u can post yr comment on that..:)..but b logical)
Atul was understanding...over caring n a cheerful person by nature..whereas sid was straightforward..a bit introvert but ya a direct dil se kinda person...but both of them meant everythin to sneha n losing any one of them would be like losing a part of her...
But you cant afford to love two persons at a time...as many find it unethical...so c had to choose one...It took her almost a week or two to decide n finally c had to lose one..
This is not as easy as it sounds...its tough to lose someone special..doesnt matter whatevr be d reason..
Wel atul is no more a part of sneha's life...but c stil cherishes her lovely memories...besides sid n atul lost their friendship.. (u might be thinking ki ek ladki ne kya kar daala)..but life goes on my dear fren..
Sneha is fine now...quite happy with her present life.. she loves sid a lot n too happy to have him..c stil grumbles at times bout sid being unromantic but c cant stay widout sid anymore as she is totally in love now... sid loves sneha(truly n honestly)..he still dint make much improvement in carrying out conversations but somehow sneha manages 90% of it..:)..atul made a wonderful decision of starting his life anew n is now a happily committed man...
All s wel that ends wel...
But lemme tel u again it wasnt tht easy how i mentioned it here...it was a real tough time thn...they were immature then n so they acted in a childish way in many circumstances..it was a total loss..someone lost friendship,someone lost love,someone lost trust n there was a point when nothing was left...it was a complete bizarre..
Many of u might hav faced this situation i know...n u can correlate this with your own story...n may be u can feel d same pain..but the only thing which i feel is whatever it be try to be in touch always..somethin might have happened which ruined d relationship but then dont forget d good memories.The person whom v blame for ruining our presents were d same person who had given our life a new meaning in our past..they were d ones who loved n cared for us...so y cant v keep our grievances n grudges aside n be frenz .....?..so i do suggest if any one of u still care for d ones u have lost then try to patch up before its too late...after all u can live this life jus for once..so y hv so much ego n hard feelins...
love n be loved...

Love story 2006.....

ok thrs this cute love story of a girl called sneha(name changed) and d guy called sid(name chngd)...they met around dec 2005 and it ws since thn tht this beautiful love story ws created.
A hot sunny aftrnun...two guys busy chasin their dreams(of doin a ramp walk in thr coll n be a heartthrob).Suddenly they wr accosted by two grls...one luckily bein bachpan ki saheli ...wel while d bachpan ki saheli ws busy recalin hr scool days her frn ws busy seein d guy who ws standin silently n hearin to the cherishable memories.Newy aftr smtym wen al their nostalgic momnts wr ovr thy tuk the pains of introducin d left outs.Wel m talkin bout sneha n sid(d lft outs)...:)
Newy aftr s intro sid rushd inside d registration rum fr his ramp wlk n bechari sneha cm bk wid a heavy hrt.Few days passed this way n sudnly d ramp wlk audition day cm.sneha ws too eagr to wtch sid n so hurried to d auditorium wid hr frnz to grab seats.Sid ws too gud in his rmp walk n succeeded in impresin many gals in the audi..specially her deewani...(sneha!)
2 months passed awy lik this..sneha's infatuation strtd turnin into love n finaly c reveald to hr frn bout hr feelins n askd 4 hlp...Her frn wantd to introduc thm n bring both f thm to talkin trms but sneha dint find tht amicable.So c hd no othr way out rathe thn stayin quite n watchin her dream man secretly..
Finaly 14th feb 2006....d day wen sneha hd her 1st encountr wid sid..it ws a wndrful evenin...rathr d best evenin in sneha's life.Though it ws a sudden encounter..tht too for 2 min bt tht meant d wrld to hr at tht pont of tym...
Thy wishd ech othr..but unfortunately thy dint leav any possibility of further contct(lik num exchnges n stuf..!)..
But God is gr8..Sneha smhow manged to get sid's numb n finaly aftr bein forced by hr frnz c msgd sid at nite jus to strt a cnvrsation.But sid dint seem much intrsted in conversations.Thts how thr ghisa pita frnshp story cntinued 4 a while n smhow thy succeeded in makin freq cnvrsations(though 80% of it is attributed to sneha).As the tym pased thy got closer(as in became gud frnz) n thy became a prt of a sml gang of frnz which used to freq hang out...
So frm frnz to likin n likin to loving...thts how d story goes on.Sid finaly fell 4 sneha n aftr a lot of confusions n problems(which wd b my nxt stry)thy committed to a sweet , wonderful n life long relationship of love...It ws on 5th sep 2006 wen sid confessed to sneha tht he likes her(sid ws an egoist n it ws a perstigious issue4 him to confess tht he loved so he tld tht he liked)..
.............................................................finally thy strtd thier nw love life on 13th sep(their anniversary date which hs nvr been celebrated since thn)..........
So tht ws how their love stry strtd..i kno it wsnt tht intrstn coz i hv written only the censored version....picture abhi baaki hai dost...
Theres a hell lot of twists n turns in their stry..thrs a love triangle..thrs a lot of brk ups , fights and all those stuffs which one wd find in a real love stry..coz al relatioships r nt hunky-dory ones...its alwys hs sm ups n downs..but a true relationship is one wich cn ovrcm all such problems or go along wid d problems as it s a part n parcel of evry relationship...